hi, secrets.

i've been bold.

last night, i was angrier than i've been in years.
it felt good.
i was laughing.

that's kind of weird.

did i find it?

i'd rather be lonely, i'd rather be free.
im as sure as the moon rolls around the sea.
but i like watching you undress,
and i think we're at our best,
by the flicker by the light of the television set.



and i was in a mood;
to destroy something beautiful. [fight club]


i think i suck at "blogging". but i like that these are my secrets.

belinger

i'm feeling irrational.

or possibly, i'm feeling completely rational.

maybe, i am not feeling anything at all and that is what is upsetting me the most.

most likely, however, i am not feeling whatever i think the "right" thing to feel is.

headsick

the sunrise and the sun sets you realize
and then you forget what you have been trying to retain.
but everybody knows that it is all about the things
that get stuck inside of your head.


you know, sometimes the saddest laugh the loudest.

film

rachael: adrian just called me and was liek can you bring three different size cucumbers to class lol what the fuck is that?

nik: friggin film students

two points for honesty

there's a strange feeling in my stomach.
i can't get my work done.

i disconnect my heart, my head.
dont wanna recognize when things go bad;
the things that you'll accept,
except that i am finding the words to say.

disconnect

long winded promises of future company
up close the sound remains the same
without the reign of terror over
every momentary change
we are exactly as before

so i missed out on the halsey stickers/pins/valentines set. one sticker was up to 20 dollars on ebay right now. is that ridiculous or what? i think the tank & underwear set is still available. the tank is cute, it's got a skyline on it (and i've got a sick sick thing for skylines) but the underwear is "thong" style, and even though it has fireflies. that won't do.

everytime you spoke and with every touch my intentions grew [kh]